Cate(aka Catie) Update:
On Monday I was sent a beautiful picture of our Dossier prior to its shipment off to China; never before has a stack of paperwork looked so lovely.
Of course I was sent a tracking number and according to FedEx it will arrive in China tomorrow. :-) not that I am constantly tracking it...or anything.
On April 26th the updated list of available children was published (this occurs every 4 weeks approx) by the Chinese government. So right now as I type two amazing people, Marvin and Lily are looking through files and pictures to make a referral for us. Today Marvin told me we could have a referral Friday morning!
Here is where I am asking for prayer; I will have a sweet little face and medical background on our potential daughter. I ask for prayer because I need to keep myself distanced until the medical information has been verified. Those of you who know me well know how hard that will be for me, especially if this child does not work for us and I have to say no. It will break my heart and I will need some serious God presence to get me through. So, thank you all in advance for your prayers!
Big Revelation:
There have been so many these past few months it is hard for me to pick just one so I will mention a few things:
The patience I am learning in this process as well as my ever growing trust in God has been huge. I am tossing things over for Him to handle constantly, which is so wonderful I cannot express in words. I have been freed from worry, guilt and anxiety countless times.
Another area I have been focused on is turning to God to meet my needs.
I want Sustanability.
Instead of the countless ways we look for Joy, Love or Acceptance here in this loud and broken world, I want to look to God to provide those things as He is the true source and only source that will sustain me.
You see in the past I might have depended on material things or another person to fill an emptiness or make me feel accepted. The problem with that is that the happiness, acceptance or whatever it may be you are looking for does not last, it is only temporary and truthfully the need is still there.
And depending on anyone in your life to meet your emotional needs is only going to cause additional pain, we are all human and we can't be dependable 100% of the time for anyone.
A recent quote I love:
"He may be a great boyfriend/husband but trust me he will make a horrible God."
That pretty much works with anything substituted in there.
So, think about the areas you could be turning to God, the true source of real peace, happiness, joy and love and give it a try.
I do not think you will be disappointed.
Hopefully next week you will get a "Meet Cate" update ;)
Jenn
